Wednesday, January 19, 2011

Frustation

Dealing with people was once a strength of mine. But now, it definitely is not. I have changed, evolved maybe, and the new me is to-the-point, cut-the-crap, you-give-me-shit-i-give-you-shitloads type. Arrogance, some might say. But for me its the best mode of survival. In my past life if I had to give back to a mean person, I would cry. Cry out of anger. A whole war will happen inside my head but nothing will be shown out. Doormat, you could say.

But today things have changed. I can't stand anybody being mean, to anybody. I fight for myself and for others if I can.

This change makes me feel better but the truth is, I am not being liked by many people anymore. Short-tempered, many say. Arrogant, some think. But its just the same me. The only change that's happened is that there's a little more of me and a little less of 'you'. In other words, I am what 'you' have always been. So full of 'yourself'. The sweetness in me has not reduced. Not one bit. The bear-ability has reduced. But after 24 years of putting up with other people's shortcomings are my own, isn't it only fair that I be the way I am now?

7 comments:

  1. You are one person I like no matter how you are or no matter how much you've changed. I've accepted you the way you are and do what you think is right!!

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  2. Lucy - that's sweet :) do we know each other?

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  3. Really? How do we know each other? I don't recall a lucy, forgive me!

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  4. Doesn't matter! But just keep smiling and be happy that way your aura will impact others positively. God bless :)

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  5. Doesn't matter! But just keep smiling and be happy that way your aura will impact others positively. God bless :)

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  6. I try everyday, to be more happier than yesterday :) I ll keep trying! (i would ve liked to know how you know me!)

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